What is up with Memorial Day weekend? We have to be all dramatic with it, apparently. I am kind of over it actually. Seattle, the house. All of it. Like what are we doing here? Not feeling really clear about what the big story of our life is.
But then I look at the pictures and it smacks me in the face. We are raising these boys. We are trying to love each other. It is exhausting. It always feels messy. We mostly just fall into bed hoping for something better tomorrow. On any given day there are the funniest retorts, the sweetest words, and sarcasm that cuts another down. All in the same day! Same hour sometimes!
I just keep waiting for it all to click into place. This city, the church, our community. But it mostly just us six. Keepin' it real and trying not to kill each other. Maybe we will hatch into a beautiful metaphoric butterfly someday, but we are definitely in the real weird cocoon, "is it dead?" phase.
This post was the best of times, it was the worst of times. And I laughed out loud at the last line. Sending happy wishes your way, because no one said The Funny Farm was always sunshine and rainbows, right? Most of the funniest things start off completely the opposite. Just keep lovin.
ReplyDeleteTwo years...congratulations? I think so...it's a lot to embrace a new place, new people, new everything- so kudos to you six for making it work... even through the mundane and hard times. As far as why or what's next? Who knows- and isn't that kind of the excitement of it? Do you think you're all closer to each other traveling this road together? And if so, that's purpose enough- right?
ReplyDeleteThis morning as I was watching the sunrise(with a cup of that black goodness of course), I was contemplating all the beauty in our lives, listening to the birds chirp, happy that Emmett Cade has slept through the night and just feeling blessed with all our great friendships... Then memories begin to flood in of you and your guys :) I realized, oh my goodness, I haven't read Aub's blog in I don't even know how long :( So here I am :) Life is so crazy and beautiful all at the same time, like you share in your posts! And just for the record, raising up Knights in this World is a ministry that should have its own donation support funds, right?! Hope you and your guys are well :) We sure do miss YOU!!!
ReplyDeleteMy brain works the same way! Glad you came back and are still reading. (and responding!) Thanks for your encouragement, can't wait to see each other face to face again... it has been way too long.
DeleteI love this!! I'm catching up a bit on your blog too. You guys make the mess look damn good. Just sayin'. Love you all and keep it coming!
ReplyDeleteThanks for the encouragement! Glad it reads good times and not nut house :)
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