book four

"we are only as strong as we are united, as weak as we are divided. Lord Voldemort's gift for spreading discord and enmity is very great. We can fight it only by showing an equally strong bond of friendship and trust. Differences of habit and language are nothing at all if our aims are identical and our hearts are open."
Dumbledore

"what would come, would come... and he would have to meet it when it did."
the last line of book 4

 I tell ya, these books are just hittin' the spot for me. So timely, the messages come through dear Harry's turmoil.

  You know what has been the difference from a good day and a bad day around here? I mean, the days that you just soak in every wonderful moment and the ones you wish had never come at all?

  Nothing.

That's right, nothing. The circumstance for us in Seattle, (no job, no family, everything being unfamiliar) has stayed the same for us, for the most part. It has just been the way we look at it. Matt and I are fighting some hard battles in perspective, and we are finding joy along the way. It is such an ugly process, seeing your heart always prefers the easy way, the comfortable way, the socially acceptable way. (uggh...) Then we celebrate with our loved ones on the other side, because we are better for it. Seeing the dark bits in one another and finding we are loved anyway. Makes me choke up just typing it.